preparing for Jacob's 4th & Jerome's 3rd bdays at Jolibee

We went to Sweet home bake shop to order the boys cakes today,... 12x16 of justice league figures --- choc cake.. and then we ordered 2 4 inch satelites to house their names and the number candle of the kids ages,.. so i envision the cake blowing to be together of course and snap they blow on queue and i get my scrapbooking pic moment,.. h ahahah over yeah I know,.. but one day they will want me to recant al the parties we had right so -- they will thank me then and pat me on the back and say mom, you're so OA but we love that you took so much time out to plan these things for us (mothers wishful thinking ok!)....

Its strange the week before when we saw the Jolibee place they asked if the kids are twins since we were having 2 boys celebrate on the same party (tipid no!) but I said 'no they are 11 months apart"... then when we attended kitkats christening and we stopped over after at SPIN and BIG and Small for the kids prepared bday outfits and woman was grinning the sales ladies and at me,.. I wasnt sure if she was annoyed bec of the loud sounds my children were making but later when I was casually saying --- sorry for the racket -- she said 'I have 2 as well' and.. then I asked 'do you lose your cool too',.. she eagerly said 'YES'.. I realised "wow, I was darn normal"... I did tell her "there is another boy, I have 3 aged under 3". Her eyes popped and she said "oh I thought 2 was a handful but 3.. how do you do it?"... I just said to her "with a lot of help!"

Jerome has those 'i love the floor' episodes and I'm praying this year he gets over that faze.... Patrick says, I hope he gets over that kasi patay tayo sa OZ,... I did remind that he neednt worry because it will me that would have to care for them and put up with bad tantrums,... but on serious note.. Lord pls let Jerome get over this 'i chuck fit stage'.....

here's reminiscin of the kids pics when they were babies..

its a few weeks till our 7th year anniversary

Its going to be just a month or so before our anniversary -- its our 7th year and boy -- in that time we have travelled, remodeled our house, shopped till we dropped and enjoyed life -- not to mention have 3 kids! God has been good, we may not be filthy rich, but he gave us a great time and he gave us enough resources to enjoy the fruits of our labor.

My wish for our family is good health and happiness from this day on..

I love my life, and even if we dont have everything, i still feel lile ots heaven on earth when I am with my boys!

thank you lord for all the blessing and our 7 blissful years

tell me how i am supposed to feel

I am on my 10th year in Manila and the main reason I came back was because of my husband Patrick. He was meant to take up studies in 1996 in oz but because of promotions lined up in his job in Manila, he changed his mind (it was after all a great decision because he had 2 promotions lined up). Of course we were so in love and we couldnt bear to be so far away from each other. We had to make a decision so I was the one that had to pack and leave. On my part it was great learning experience because I grew more independently and realised I can live without the comforts of home. I finished my teaching degree and I learned the real value of living being back in Manila.

Now we are facing my most fervent wish to go back in to OZ to live and yet why do I feel unexcited (if that is the right word for it, if a word does exist),.. Maybe because I was starting to regain my independence, realised my worth as a woman and mother and now I have to go back to Sydney to singlehandedly care for my kids, set up home somewhere near mom and start over.... WE are leaving Manila by Sept with our clothes, household items and no debts to our name.... its like starting over.. Buying a house (and hopefully doing this with no mortgage pls) and getting our van for the boys, buying car seats, setting up schools for them to go to.. I know I will pull my hair out for the first 6 months but I guess its ok -- I will endure the sleepless nights, the days when I will disappear into my family because of all the things I need to do for them...

I am just whinging, I should count myself lucky to have great parents, inlaws and no debts -- great friends who have been with me forever..... pardon me if I am venting this out right now, I just need to let it all out...

now the quest begins to ship by air or by sea, whats better, whats more affordable, what could let me ship my familys things and my scrap stuff in the most cheapest way.. so god help me I need to catalog and list all the stuff in my house and the boxes in my house,... can I do this? I guess I can..

oh well,.. good luck to you jo!